by Oliver O’Conner, he/him
I went there again
And this time it didn’t feel like you…
There was no warm sunshine on my back
There was no hands intertwined
There wasn’t a smile to greet me
There wasn’t lips on mine
I don’t think they understood
What I meant when the forest sings
When I told them if they looked just right
They could see a fairy’s wings
There was no one to chase me
As I ran towards the sea
I could taste the salt on my lips
As it all faded from me
I tried to retrace our steps
And go beyond the forbidden line
I tried to take these places
And somehow make them mine
But I was wrong to think I could
For it is yours till the end
As I am, though you seem to have forgotten
I am your eternal friend
I went there without you…
And it killed me I’ll admit
To touch your tree and feel your presence
Without you there to redeem it
I think a part of you lingers there still
But it’s different to me how
Sitting in the golden sand
It’s only our memories now
As they all chase the waves
And wander through the meadows
You are forever
Haunting my shadow.
